My Wish For You

There are some moments in life that are just great and unforgettable. Most times they are there after a long wait, a great pursuit, or after some big sacrifices and hard work. And when the moment comes, you'll know that you deserve it, and it's worth the waiting.

This one entry is specially dedicated to my good friend Jacqueline and to congratulate her for finally achieving her new job, after long weeks of waiting. You deserve it, and though I'm a little sad that you'll leave this town again later, but I've always known that that is the right thing for you. Your path has always been this way, so I want you to embrace it and make good out of it.

These several days, my head kept singing a song unconsciously, one song that I learned from you but had never really liked it until a few days ago. I listened to the lyrics carefully and thought that it's a really good song. Especially the first part of the song. ... And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you ... every time I heard this line, I will smile reflexively, I don't know why. Maybe Rascal Flatts sings it beautifully or maybe I like the tone of it.

I can't find another song that is as perfect as this one to you. This song is dedicated for you, along with this whole entry. I want you to read carefully what it says in the lyrics below, because I mean every word of it. You can listen the song too through the white playlist right-above this page (though I think you've got the mp3 on your PC :P ).

And finally, congratulations for your new job, have fun in Berastagi (coz that's where you are right now), and don't forget your old friends once you're there, in another country, in a new life.

"My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Regards,
Solilololo Bam :P

other people's wishes

Building a commitment, sticking to a plan

is not as easy as it sounds. No matter what commitment you want to make, every now and then, you’ll be tempted to try and find a way to break it.

For example, when you’re romantically involved with a girl and you both have sworn and said your love, is it easy to keep you heart just for one person? Have you ever thought of crossing your promise and thought of somebody else, like “Wow, She’s so sexy.” And when you’re giving up to the temptation, you go and ask somebody else out, kiss her, or else. You’re cheating.

Well, even though I don’t have a girl friend right now, I always thought me as a person who will always be faithful to my girl friend. Of course I can’t prove it until I do have one. But it’s not just some random meaningless promise or just some babblings about what is right. I mean, I can be a committed person. I can keep my promise and NOT having an affair. But just one thing, in order for me to do that, I must be sure that she is someone who’s very right for me. She’s the one, you know. That’s it. Soul mate. And that’s when I settle down. Oh, how good it must be…

On another story—but quite related to this topic, I have been told that making a going-to-the-gym-habit is not easy. For people who never go to gym before, they usually need about 100 days to be used to exercise regularly everyday, and so they’ll be committed to that. They don’t need a good reason no more. It’s just… what you do.

I believe I haven’t been used to exercise that way, but I diligently attend there whenever I have time. Although my body hurts like hell, it’s raining, or I’m feeling too tired, I’ll still go there and exercise at least for two hours a day. What reason could it be for me? Well, I always want something new to do, to experience something I wouldn’t want to do a year ago. Other than that, I know that my job is making me hard to meet some new people. And I see that I can meet a bunch of new friends here. And these two reasons motivated me strongly.

Today, I found a new reason, a better one. See, I met this new girl in there. I’ve seen her several times before but we haven’t got chance to talk. But these last few days have been unique. And today, I officially know her. She’s gorgeous, and hell, she’s stunningly beautiful. It surely made my day. And more, it made me want to go to gym everyday. New motivation, huh?

See? Sometimes it’s not hard to be committed to something. When you least expect it, something appears in the corner, something good and guarantee you to stick to your commitment. You just have to know how to seize it.

Good night.

What I Saw

Hello.

Not much has happened. Everything in "What I Did" is still everything I've done so far, ah, except watching Die Hard 4.0 at Saturday Midnight. Well.. one hell of a movie there. I wanted to write the review, but I am quite lazy today.. hehe..

Btw, here are some pictures that were supposed to be in What I Did entry, but since I hadn't had time before, well.. it's better too late than never, ain't it?

Below is my genius pal Riki Lidian. He's been quite different than I thought, but yet I saw him absolutely the same. Not so clear huh, something to think about.

Hm, below are Michael and Riwan from left to right.

That's Cia Cia and Michael the night we watched Shrek 3.

And these are the pictures from my gym I hadn't been able to take before. I took these at night, when all of them had gone home or taken showers.

This picture isn't so good. It's because the room was dark.

Those treadmills looked cool. Well, not cool cool. They are tiringly cool.

Below is what they call "The Crazy Exerciser". I kinda like it. It vibrates our fat and makes me feel like my short is going to loose.

Below is my favorite tool. Haha.. the left one, folks. I called it "Tummy Dance". LOL

The lockers are tidy. That's all.

Here's where I played pingpong so often.

Here's the patio, balcony, or whatever you wanna call it. I call it "The Windy Fortress".

This picture was taken from a distance with Nokia 6600 camera. So pardon me for the vagueness. But screw it, I can't read mandarin after all.

The building... La la la..

Oh yeah.. this is my new golden shoes. Lol. I like it simple.

Good bye...

What I did

1. Watched The Transformers, reviewed it, and hoped my bike would transform into Bumblebee.

Review :

About the movie, when I first sat there in the first several minutes, thinking how good this movie would be, the preview kicked in. I saw Die Hard 4.0 trailer which was quite awesome (could be more awesome if I hadn't seen it before :D) and I was hoping the next preview would be Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, and so it was. Dream come true. There was a familiar sound like a steel door bang shut, and then there was Dumbledore's voice "There's a storm coming out.." and then somebody whispered "Harry!"

I got too excited, not because I hadn't seen the trailer before, ( I have seen all the versions of HP trailers for like a zillion times), no, but the excitement came from my head, where I realized that it is no longer than 12 days left until the movie. And it kicked me. Wow.. the next film I would be seeing is this. But that's another story later. Now, it's about The Transformers.

The prologue of the movie was quite cool, the camera showed the allspark closely and then we saw it floating in the outer space, heading to earth. It only took that one scene to make me sit there and enjoy the movie. I will give you a very brief review so I can't spoil you.

The story : not bad. We can learn and understand about the why and who eventhough they explained it 30 minutes after the movie. Before that, we got a glimpse of Bumblebee, Frenzy, that helicopter thing whose name I forgot.. hehe.. and they did it in a fashionable way. I was impressed. They didn't bore me.

The special effect : Outstanding! Even if you can't get the main story, you will be blown away with its spectacular effects. It was full with blowing cars, planes, crafts, tanks, and cars again. My mouth was wide opened for most scenes.

The acting : I was surprised to see how good Shia LaBeouf portrayed his character, Sam. Now I get it how is it the movie Disturbia ranked itself in the top of Box Office for several weeks. I had some funny surprise in the beginning of the movie, where a general in charge for the squadron in Qatar was the actor from the TV Series 24. His name is Glenn Morshower, and he played Aaron Pierce in 24. I like his acting skill.

The Robots : They were complicated yet stylish. They were very humanic. They were funny too. The robots were different from the original Transformers, and only several robots were introduced in this movie.

Overall : This movie is a must-see. I think it's the combination of drama, action, comedy, and eye candy, just like Armageddon.. Great summer movie, indeed!

Pictures :

Megatron

Optimus Prime

Bumblebee

2. Met some old friends.

Yeah, this week I met Harianto, Ferry, Riki Lidian, Teddy Salim, Michael, Riwan, Darta, Anita Tanjaya, Willy, Amanta, and some more. I haven't been able to meet Meiwina and Jacq yet, however, but there's still time.

There are several things you wish to happen and several things you wish never to happen whenever you meet your old friends. I thought that I had behaved well enough, but when it comes to meeting an old lady friend, I tend to be speechless and say all the wrong things. And it is not the worst thing. The worst is when I have nothing to say at all. How come, after having wishing to see a very old lady friend, when you meet her, you mess it all up. Ah.. I don't understand what it is that makes me so uncomfortable with ladies.

3. Exercised. Played Ping Pong.

It's a new routine I like to keep up. The first day after I went to gym, my body hurt like hell, so hard to even get up from bed. But the pain vanished in couple of days (three, to be exact). And now, I have found a new hobby, ping pong. When I first touched the bat, I played it like playing badminton. But then I learned how to do it, second by second, minute by minute. And it only took me several minutes to be able to kick my friend's ass. Lol. I don't think I am good in ping pong, but I think I have learnt so fast, too fast in fact, that I was surprised myself to see me suddenly knew how to play it well. Ah.. weird things happens. I played ping pong every time I am in the gym. Enjoy it.

4. Watched Shrek 3 and Fantastic 4.

I did the Silver Surfer long before I finally watched Shrek the Third. Things had happened that postponed me to watch that movie. Over and over again. It's quite a long wait too, since the cinema here had to wait the Pirate to end first before putting Shrek on the schedule. After several obstacles and promises, I have watched it, eventually, though under the circumstances I'd never thought of. But I'm happy to have finished my promise.

SHREK the THIRD REVIEW

I have always loved Shrek because it had presented fresh comedy, parodies, and great songs for me. I always get the laugh out of it. These are some great songs I've known from Shrek.

1. John Cale - Hallelujah (From Shrek One, this song has the greatest lyrics of all time, well, IMO)

2. Counting Crows - Accidentally in love (from the beginning of Shrek 2, this song has a great chemistry. A happy song)

3. Jennifer Saunders - Holding out for a hero (From the climax scenes of Shrek 2, this song is a unique version sang by the actress of the Godmother herself)

4. Frou Frou - Holding out for a hero (from the credit of Shrek 2, this song is... cool!)

I still wait to see what great songs lies inside Shrek the Third. I believe I noticed several when I watched it. The movie is, well.. you know... very funny. I like the way they keep bringing the other children figure into this movie. There are still Pinocchio, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty (who btw, can be found asleep throughout the movie), Captain Hook, The ugly Step sisters, Prince Charming, Three Blinded Mice, Witches, The living trees, cyclops, and more.. If you, by chance, haven't laid eyes on this movie, I suggest you do so.

5. Bought more DVDs.

Hahaha.. this one habit can't extinguish. This week perhaps is the most lavish week of me. I have bought Nip/Tuck season 4, Lost season 2, Smallville season 6, Lost season 3, American Idol season 1-4, and I still plan to buy Six Feet Under season 3 and who knows when I'll give up Prison Break. LOL.

Dudes, don't try to be like me. I am so addicted in TV Series. It's no good. Hah!

6. Closeness.

It's a random thought actually, last night, when I was cursing the damn Electric Company for the constant blackouts, my mind accidentally came across a scene from Friends, when Joey dreamed about him and Monica sharing a romantically closeness (not sex) solving puzzles together, after seeing Chandler and Monica did it earlier. It's a very simple thing, but I realized. I wanted it. To have somebody very close to you and you can share your world with her. Doing minor things together. Just someone to spend the day, spend your time with. Coz it felt like you having someone by your side for all time, feeling bonded and united. I know how it feels although I never have it in my life. The world seems to be enough, no need for everything else. It's just you and me. Just the two of you. You can overcome everything. You don't care about anything at all. Boy, I want it.

7. Writing something new.

The most important thing I did this week was creating a whole new document that was so confidential I can never put signs in this blog other than this. I wanted to spill everything about Cy on one place. After doing so, I felt relieved. But then, I can never speak about it. And that's a whole new challenge. Keeping my mouth shut. Will I be able to do it? I shall see.

FAQ

Not So Frequently Asked Questions

about http://soliloquial.blogspot.com/

1. Who are you? What’s your name? Who the hell are you?
— Name’s Bam Superwan (pronounced SuperOne). I’m a soliloquist. I’m a blogger who doesn’t care about anything except his own life. Constantly complaining and being desperate, selfish might be the right word.

2. I can’t seem to find “soliloquial” in my dictionary. Could you please tell me what’s that? And what about “soliloquist”, “soliloquize”, “soliloquy”, “soliloquies”, and all that nonsense?
— You’re right. Soliloquial isn’t a real word. I made it up. It’s an adjective for soliloquism—which I also created. It’s like ventriloquial for ventriloquist. Nah, that one you can find on the dictionary. Soliloquist is a person who talks to himself, having conversations and sort of. Soliloquize is the verb. For more explanation: here.

3. Why do you choose the word soliloquist? Why do you blog?
— Geez, one question at a time. Why soliloquist? Cause when a crazy old person lived all by himself, he would need a thing, like a snake, so that his neighbors could yell… “Watch out for the snake! Watch out for the crazy man with the snake!!!” Got me? Why do I blog? coz I am lonely and I love to write.

4. So you’re crazy, huh?
— Well, that depends. Do you call yourself crazy?

5. I have seen your blog but there are too many words on it, which caused me not want to read it.
— It’s OK. You can just linger here, listen to a repetitive song, click on wherever you like, or you can just press ALT + F4 and calm your CPU Usage.

6. I have read all your posts and I love it. I think you’re great. And oh yeah… I’m a pretty girl wearing a red shirt.
— Marry me.

7. Your blog has too many accessories.
— Yeah, what’re you going to do about it?

8. You have lots of seriously grammatical errors. You probably should learn how to speak English properly before creating your own blog.
— Oh, sorry. I doesn’t mean to confused you. I thinked my English are OK enough for you to understands. Maybe you can corrects my English skill on this one : “BITE ME!”

9. Do you like Harry Potter? What else do you like?
— Harry Potter, Backstreet Boys, BoA, Drew Barrymore, and serial TV such as Friends, 24, Lost, Smallville, the 4400, etc

10. What is it that you despise? What is your biggest fear? I want to send you a birthday present and I can’t think of the perfect one…
— Lonely. Loneliness. Being alone. Seclusion. Solitude. There, you can pick one.

11. I wish to email you. I want to know you better. I want to be your friend. Can I know your email?
— You can message me from my Friendster page, then I shall give you my personal email address.

12. So I took that quiz of yours and damn! I didn’t know a thing about you.
— I know. I failed too.

13. Are you gay?
— No. Why?

14. Harry Potter? Soliloquist? Lonely? Blogging? Dude… You are so lame.
— Thankz Dude.

15. Do you have a girlfriend?
— Not yet. Nobody is wearing a red shirt here.

16. I heard that you don’t believe in God. Really?
— No, I don’t believe in god.

17. Then how are you planning on living this life?
— I don’t plan. I just live.

18. After reading this nsFAQ, I finally realize I’m wasting my time. Goodbye!
— Bye bye …!

19. After reading this nsFAQ, I finally realize that you are my soulmate.
— I know you do.

20. You do believe in…
— soulmate? Yeah.