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Sunday, January 20, 2008

The Best 5 American TV Series Ever

This entry is about The Best 5 American TV Series Ever, well, at least for me. They are not listed as in "Top Five" style, since they're all really really good. Think of them as equally great.

I really love following American TV Series, because through them I can learn and love so many things, from their lifestyles, their humors, their great country and culture (unlike mine), and their genius ideas. I have been following many shows out there, and after I did a little research and thinking, these five are the best amongst all.

Hope this entry entertains you. I know it does for me. ^.^


Will and Grace

Will and Grace title-card

Will and Grace is a popular Emmy Award-winning and Golden Globe-nominated sitcom on NBC. The first time I watched this show, it reminded me of Friends alot. But then as I kept watching and falling in love with Will, Jack, Grace and Karen, it turned out this show was totally different from Friends. The bottom line is that I never enjoyed a show that's as fun as this. It's so addicting that I bought and ordered all the eight seasons in a heartbeat. I've never done anything like this before. Salute to Will and Grace!

Memorable Quotes :

[Grace tries to start a car, but it just clicks]
Grace: That's weird. Will, what do you think is wrong?
Karen: Oh my God. She just asked a fairy an engine question. We're all gonna die in this car!
Will: Karen, you're not going to die. It would take a silver bullet and a wooden stake to do that.

Grace: Are you flashing that woman?
Karen: She started it!
Grace: She's nursing!
Karen: That explains the little bald man.

Karen: Hey Poodle.
Jack: Who's your daddy?
Karen: You are.

[Jack is angry with Karen]
Karen: Hi, poodle.
Jack: Mm. How are you?
[to Grace]
Jack: Hi, Grace. Who's your daddy?
Grace: [confused] His name is Martin Adler.

Memorable Running Gag :

"Honey, what's this? what's happening? What's going on?" --- Karen Walker (download the wav)

Funny Moments in Will and Grace


Friends title-card

Friends is an Emmy Award-winning sitcom on NBC about a group of six Manhattan-ers Ross Geller, Rachel Green, Chandler Bing, Phoebe Buffay, Joey Tribbiani and Monica Geller. This is truly my first sitcom, first American serial TV, first show I love. With their super-funny lines, cracking jokes, creative story-telling, memorable drama, and unforgettable experiences, this can easily be my favourite show of all time. It's never a dull time to watch Friends over and over again, because the laughter, as Phoebe said, is infectious.

Memorable Quotes :
Phoebe: They don't know that we know they know we know.
Phoebe: [singing]
New York City has no power
And the milk is getting sour
But to me it is not scary
'Cause I stay away from dairy
Chandler: You know what's weird? Donald Duck never wore pants. But whenever he's getting out of the shower, he always put a towel around his waist. I mean, what is that about?
Joey: The question, Rachel, is this: does he like you? Otherwise, it's just a moo point.
Rachel: A moo point?
Joey: You know, like a cow's opinion. It doesn't matter. It's moo.
Rachel: Have I been living with him too long, or did all that just make sense?

Last words of the series
[Last words of the series.]
Rachel: Do you guys have to go to the new house right away, or do you have some time?
Monica: We've got some time.
Rachel: Okay. Should we get some coffee?
Chandler: Sure. [pause] Where?
Memorable Running Gag :

"Hey, How you doin'?" --- Joey Tribbiani (download the wav)

Friends Most Funny and Memorable Moments


24 is an Emmy and Golden Globe award-winning series on FOX. It's a terrorist-killing, innocent-torturing, justice-straightening absolutely awesome action drama series of all time. I first watched the show, back in season one in Indonesian cheapy television SCTV. They only showed its first season only. But since I was already in love with Jack Bauer (er... it sounds wrong), I went and bought all the six seasons. Right now, I'm waiting for its seventh season which was delayed due to Writer's Strike. Can't wait to see Tony Almeida's return as the antagonist.

24 intertitle

Memorable Quotes :
Jack Bauer : I'm federal agent Jack Bauer, and today is the longest day of my life.


Jack Bauer : The only reason your conscious is because I don't want to have to carry you.


Jack Bauer : Do you trust me? DO YOU TRUST ME!

24 cast in Emmy Awards

24 season 7 preview


Heroes title-card

Heroes is an American science fiction drama series on NBC. It's a comical adventrous exciting funny and addictive series for me. I've followed its story completely, having quite in love with the characters and the ideas of the series, the brilliance of their imagination, and the shocking cliff-hangers in the end of every episode. It's hard not to like this show. Though the second season was a bit disappointment due to --- again --- the writer's strike, I have an optimistic hope for the third season. It will be great!

Memorable Quotes :
Hiro Nakamura : Save the cheerleader, save the world!
Peter: You're on the wrong side!
Nathan: What about me, Pete?
Peter: Nathan?
Nathan: Am I on the wrong side, too?
Sylar: I'm back.

Nathan: You saved the cheerleader, so we could save the world.

Heroes Volume 3 preview from Jules Verne Festival Part 1

Heroes Volume 3 preview from Jules Verne Festival Part 2

Grey's Anatomy

Grey's Anatomy intertitle for season1

Grey's Anatomy is an Emmy and Golden Globe award-winning American primetime medical drama on ABC. Its casual jokes, accurate medical details, soul-warming drama, heart-pouncing action, and the funny repetitions of the word "Seriously", are some of the many reasons why I love this show. I am in love with the characters, such as the "dark and twisty" Meredith, the optimistic "Oh-I-loved-Denny-but-now-I-love-George" Dr. Izzie Stevens, the "Nazi" "Don't-you-ever-think-you-can-get-around-me" Dr.Bailey, the one and only "McDreamy" Derek, and so much more... (McSteamy, McBaby, McVet, etc). I'm very exciting in waiting for its season 4 DVD. Hope the writer's strike ends soon.

Memorable Quotes :
Burke: Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say 'til death do us part, but I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. And I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not. I am sure. I am steady. And I know I am a heart man, take them apart, put them back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, my heart, beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you, me....

Addison: I think I speak for every woman here when I say... dump her. Dump Yang and marry me.
Izzie: If you tell me any more crap about heading towards the light or looking down on me from heaven, I swear, I will kill you myself right now. [Gasping a little]
Denny: [tears in his eyes] Izzie... [Pause] I'm gonna be alright. [Shaking her head in disbelief] Alright, you don't have to worry.
Izzie: What about ME? What about me when you go into the light?
Denny: Izzie—
Izzie: No! I get it, OK? I get it! You'll be OK, you'll be fine, but what about me?! So don't do it for yourself, do it for me! Please? Please, Denny! Please do this for me! Because if you die—Oh, God! You have to do this! You have to do this for me, or I'll never be able to forgive you!
Denny: For dying?
Izzie: No! For making me love you! Please? Please, do this—
Denny: Come here.
Izzie: Please do this for me? OK? Please? OK? I can't do this if you don't, please! Do this for me! Please?!
Denny: OK. OK, I'll do it.
Meredith: Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive.
George: Family...
Cristina: Love...
Izzie: Sex.
Derek: But we only need one thing...
Burke: To actually be alive.
Cristina: We need a beating heart.
Addison: When our heart is threatened...
Alex: we respond in one of two ways.
George: We either run or...
Izzie: we attack.
Chief: There's a scientific term for this:
Alex: Fight...
Addison: or flight.
Bailey: It's instinct...
Meredith: We can't control it.
Izzie: Or can we?

Credit of this Image : zash_mchotie on Flicker

Best Moments in Grey's Anatomy


That's all for the best five. These shows below are great too, and they are the only ones who almost sneak their ass in "The Best Five" :P

1. Prison Break
2. The OC
3. Smallville
4. Nip/Tuck

But at least they're in "The Best Ten".

Ok. I'm out.



Wednesday, January 16, 2008

The One with the Other Language

One day.
We are sitting on a beach.
Listening to the swirling sound of peaceful waves, the chirping birds and the mildly blown wind. Mmmm, what a wonderful feeling. I guess in time like that we are capable of absorbing every single bit of heavy thoughts of our lives without feeling miserable, depressed, scared, sad, or … just heavy. I guess in time like this—— — ---

[For the very first time, this blog will present an entry in Indonesian language, just one entry. Why? because a little while ago, I think that this blog is becoming less creative with her each entry. It’s always ended with the phrase : “In the end, …” or “At some point, …” or other Grey’s Anatomy-ish same-styled introduction and epilogue. Perhaps it’s time to change it a little bit, even in just one entry.]

Suatu kala.
Kita sedang duduk di tepi pantai.
Mendengarkan riuh ombak yang bernadakan ke
damaian, kicau-kicau burung dan belaian angin yang malu-malu. Mmmm, sungguh perasaan yang menyenangkan. Kurasa di saat seperti itulah kita bisa menyerap setiap butir pikiran akan hidup kita tanpa merasa sengsara, tertekan, takut, pilu, atau ... terbebani. Kurasa disaat seperti inilah aku bisa menulis sebuah entri yang lain dari pada yang lain, dengan sepenuh dan sesempurna berlian dalam memantulkan cahaya.

Kadang-kadang, ketika aku merasa penuh dengan pikiran dan masalah, aku mencoba untuk menutup mata, lalu membayangkan diriku berada di puncak sebuah bukit yang luas, hijau dengan rumput setinggi mata kakiku. Kubayangkan diriku berbaring disana, wajah menghadap langit, pikiran melayang menembus ke surga. Disana aku menemukan kedamaian. Disana aku menemukan cinta.

Lalu beberapa menit kemudian, aku terbangun dan kembali ke dunia nyata, tempat aku harus bangun tiap hari disaat aku masih ingin tidur, tempat dimana aku harus melakukan pekerjaan tak-bermasa-depan yang melelahkan dan membosankan hanya karena bayarannya cukup memuaskan, tempat dimana hampir semua manusianya terikat dalam dunia sosial kaku indonesia yang kuno dan berpikiran sempit, tempat dimana hampir semua gadis keturunan malaikat cinta sudah entah kawin atau menjadi lesbian.

Oh, tolonglah. Menit-menit di puncak bukit itu begitu memuaskan. Aku tidak ingin bangun.

Kelopak mataku terbuka.

Bayangan kehidupan ku beberapa hari lalu melesat mengunjungi retinaku. Oh aku ingat. Hari Jumat lalu adalah hari terakhir aku mengajar siswa 19.00 ku. Sungguh hari yang sudah aku tunggu-tunggu. Hari dimana aku terbebas dari belenggu kebosanan yang kurakit berbulan-bulan lalu. Aku tak bisa tahan lagi dengan jam ngajar yang mengerikan itu. Aku merasa tidak bisa bernafas jika aku terus-terus melakukannya. Aku merasa hidupku jadi terbuang sia-sia karena pekerjaan itu. Aku seharusnya bisa punya waktu untuk melakukan aktifitas lain. Aku seharusnya tidak se-merana ini. Itulah sebabnya aku berhenti.

Pekerjaanku memang sudah menjadi salah satu masalah utama hidupku. Alasan mengapa aku selalu menjadi orang yang kelam dan suram. Dark and twisty, seperti kata Meredith Grey dari Grey’s Anatomy. Aku ingin mengejar mimpiku. Hanya saja pada saat ini, mimpi dari kehidupanku masih terlalu kabur dan aku tidak tahu apa yang harus aku lakukan untuk mengejarnya.

Bicara tentang mimpi, aku punya beberapa mimpi yang begitu membekas. Hm... sejujurnya, selama dua hari belakangan ini, aku terus-menerus memimpikan cewek-cewek yang aku suka di masa lalu. Bukannya dalam bentuk mimpi yang indah, melainkan mimpi yang menakutkan.

Mimpi-mimpi itu seperti menampakkan apa yang akan (atau telah) terjadi pada mereka yang dulu aku suka. Mimpi-mimpi itu menunjukkan padaku apa yang akan aku rasakan ketika hal-hal yang terjadi dalam mimpi itu benar-benar terjadi padaku. Aku benar-benar tidak bisa menerimanya.

Aku merasa benar-benar tidak mampu. Apa yang harus aku lakukan?

Mimpi-mimpi itu.... pertama, aku melihat Anni yang telah berada jauh di sana. Ia benar-benar punya hidup yang baru. Aku seperti berada di dalam dunianya, berdiri di sampingnya sepanjang waktu, mengawasinya, menontonnya. Tapi dia tidak bisa melihatku. Aku bukan lah siapa-siapa.

Aku melihat dia melakukan apa yang dia lakukan. Aku meihat semuanya. Aku melihat dunia miliknya yang seharusnya sekarang juga milikku. Aku melihat keterlambatanku akan hidup yang lebih baik, “keterlambatan”! Kata apaan itu? Lebih tepat diganti kata “mimpiku”. keterlambatan membuatnya seperti “dapat kujalani, hanya saja aku terlambat”.

Oh, please. mengapa aku cenderung melukai diriku dengan semua kepesimisan ini? Tidakkah ada sebuah sinar terang keoptimisan dan harapan nyata akan masa depanku?

Mimpiku yang kedua adalah tentang Cy. Dia sudah dewasa. Aku juga menuntunnya selayak aku menuntun Anni di mimpiku yang sebelumnya.

Ini sama menyakitkannya.

Aku bertanya-tanya, bahkan sampai sekarang, mengapa aku kerap mengalami mimpi-mimpi seperti itu? Mengapa aku tidak bisa mencicipi bagaimana rasanya hidup seperti mereka di dunia nyata? Anni, Cy, Anita, Jacqueline, Erick, Riki Lidian, Harvey, Ervina, atau bahkan mungkin Iswandi?

Pada beberapa waktu, aku mengunjungi friendster dan melihat apa yang terjadi pada dunia. Ia tersenyum balik padaku, lalu ia menertawakan aku dan kumpulan foto-fotoku. Mereka semua, yang ada di dunia sana, terasa sekali seperti bagian “luar” dari duniaku. Apa yang terjadi dengan diriku dan bagaimana aku bisa terlempar keluar dari sana?

Lalu aku dipaksa untuk melihat profilku. Suram dan hitam, dengan shoutboxI am alone”. Mereka tertawa. Belasan foto yang tak berarti, semuanya menyuarakan apa yang kuteriakkan di shoutbox. Mereka tertawa. Ratusan kata di seksi About Me yang kesemuanya menggambarkan kesepian di hati. Mereka semua tertawa, lalu mereka berpaling dan pergi meneruskan hidup mereka. Mereka berfoto di pantai, bersama dua belas teman lain yang saling meng-hi-five-kan telapak kaki mereka, mengubur satu sama lain dalam pasir pantai yang diam membisu. Atau mereka pergi ke Mikie Holiday, sebuah tempat yang tidak aku kunjungi dalam seratus tahun belakangan. Mereka menunggangi roda dengan calon pacar. Mereka berfoto di KLCC bersama rekan kerja. Mereka berkemah di bawah air terjun. Mereka tertawa, tersenyum, dan mereka hidup. Mereka bahagia.

Apakah kita?

Mengapa kita bermimpi?

Mengapa kita hidup?

Mengapa kita bertanya-tanya?

Peter Petrelli melompat dari atap gedung bertingkat karena dia tidak bisa menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini. Apakah aku harus melakukan hal yang sama?

Aku rasa tidak.

Kamu juga kan?


[Dua belas jam kemudian]

Waktu tampaknya memang cepat berlalu. Suatu saat kamu merencanakan apa yang akan kamu lakukan pada hari terakhir tahun 2007, dalam sekedip mata saja, kamu sudah merencanakan resolusi tahun baru mu, bahwa kamu tidak seharusnya banyak berkomplain lagi tentang hidupmu dan kemeranaanmu, kamu berjanji kalau kamu harus membeli Will and Grace, berjanji kalau kamu harus membeli laptop baru pada tahun ini, tahun baru. tahun 2008. Sekedip mata kemudian, semuanya sudah terjadi. Beberapa berhasil, beberapa gagal.

Tapi ternyata waktu berjalan sungguh lambat. Tidak percaya? coba saja kamu mengamati sebuah jam dinding dan mengikuti gerak jarum detik. Pikirlah. Haraplah agar hari ini cepat selesai, karena hari ini bukan hari yang bagus buatmu.

Nah, sudah merasa seperti Hiro Nakamura belum?

Ngomong-ngomong soal Will and Grace, rasanya aku sudah gila. Baru saja hari Sabtu lalu aku membeli Will and Grace season 3, 4, 5, dan 8. Aku juga membeli “Saw IV”, “I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry”, “Knocked Up”, dan “The Simpson Movie”. Itu ada 28 DVD, totalnya. Dan karena harga satu DVD adalah Rp. 6.000,- maka aku sudah menghabiskan Rp. 156.000,- dalam satu hari. Aku tahu, aku tahu... hitungan itu tidak benar. Tapi untuk setiap pembelian 10 DVD, aku berhak memilih satu dengan gratis. meskipun demikian...

Yah, kelihatannya aku tidak perlu menjelaskan lebih jauh lagi. Intinya adalah aku menjadi sangat boros jika sudah sampai ke Will and Grace. Apalagi jika besoknya aku kembali lagi ke toko itu dan membeli 6 DVD Will and Grace season 2 dan memesan season 6 dan 7... Iya, aku sudah gila.

Lalu, apa lagi yang aku lakukan?


Oh ya, hari minggu lalu aku pergi ke Sun Plaza dan aku menghabiskan Rp.50.000 hanya untuk makan pizza yang enak sekali. Aku berjanji kalau aku akan memakan empat potong, tapi pada akhirnya aku menelan 5 potong pizza ukuran Large dan 2 potong Garlic Bread yang membuat haus. Sesudahnya, aku tidak bisa berjalan jauh lagi. Tubuhku lemas karena terlalu banyak makan. Oh, tak heran aku jadi segemuk ini.

Komik Heroes juga sudah keluar di Medan.

Hari Minggu itu juga adalah hari peluncuran Harry Potter 7 dalam bahasa Indonesia. Aku berlagak seperti ini :

Oh, buku ini? Aku sudah baca setengah tahun yang lalu! Udah basi gini kalian sekarang baru heboh-heboh...!

Iya, aku tahu. Aku tahu. I’m such an ass.

Tapi memang begitulah dunia dijalankan di Indonesia. Semuanya serba terlambat dan kuno. Semuanya serba “kalah” jika dibandingkan dengan hal lain. Lihat saja koneksi internetnya, harga laptopnya, dan mantan presidennya. Dan begitu kamu tahu yang lebih baik (namun tidak bisa mendapatkannya), kamu pasti jadi benci sama negara ini.

Tapi aku tetap menikmati peluncuran buku itu, bagaimanapun juga aku adalah penggemar berat Harry Potter dan Relikui Kematian—begitu kata si Srisanti Listiana, Ha Ha Ha.

Oh shit, aku jadi sekejam Karen “Cruella” Walker.

Tapi tenang saja. aku bukan orang yang mudah berubah sifat.
Sekali keras kepala, aku tetap keras kepala.
Sekali pemaksa, aku selamanya pemaksa.
Sekali pencemburu, aku tetap pencemburu.
Namun sekali aku jatuh cinta pada gadis idamanku, selamanya aku tetap cinta. Lihat saja contohnya.
Sekali aku jatuh cinta pada Khiau Lo dibawah ini, aku tetap cinta. (Yah, bukan analogi yang bagus....)

Dan sekali aku bilang aku sudah melupakan Cy, aku sudah melupakannya...

Aku ingat, walau rasanya seperti beberapa abad yang lalu, ketika aku menghapus dan melenyapkan semua pesan dan surat-surat yang mengingatkan aku pada dia. Banyak sekali. Aku ingat ketika aku membaca beberapa dari mereka sebelum aku melemparnya ke dalam kobaran api neraka keabadian.

Banyak sekali hal yang membuatku terharu dan sedih. Rasa sakit di dalam tampaknya membelah diri dan bertambah banyak ratusan kali lipat. Namun walau semua sisa fisik Cy sudah aku bakar, memori dirinya tetap melekat di kepalaku. Dan hanya ada satu cara efektif yang aku tahu bisa mendorongnya jauh-jauh. Cara tersebut, aku belum menemukan-nya. Yang ku tahu hanyalah kalau “ia” mengambil bentuk seorang gadis manis berambut simpel dan berbaju merah. Dimanapun ia berada.


Kurasa pada akhirnya, aku hanya perlu membuat diriku tentram dan damai. Maka aku kembali lagi berteduh dibawah naungan angin sepoi-sepoi dan cakrawala biru. Berbaring sepi. Kedengarannya seperti tema hidupku—kesepian, tapi tidak begitu. Kali ini akan ada melodi lembut yang mengalun menemaniku. Namanya kedamaian. Kedamaian yang aku rindukan saat lalu, saat ini, dan selalu.

Kemesraan ini...
Janganlah cepat berlalu...

Kemesraan ini...
Ingin kukenang selalu...

Hatiku damai...
Jiwaku tenang disampingmu...

Hatiku damai...
Jiwaku tentram bersamamu....

Aku selalu merindukanmu.


Sunday, January 13, 2008

Where the hell is everybody?

For so long I was sitting in this chair wondering what I should write since there was no inspiration stumbling upon my mind. But in the end, I came to think that it's time I write a new poem. Ridiculously, inspirations per inspirations flooded my mind. What the hell?

Anyway, I hope you like this. Say something.

Hello Hell

Where the hell are you?
Where the hell are you hiding?
Are you hiding?

What the hell are you?
What the hell are you doing?
Are you fading?

Why the hell you?
Why the hell are you ebbing?
Are you vanished?

Where the hell are you?
Where the hell is everybody?
Do you see my body?

Where the hell are you?
Where the hell am I?
Am I in hell?

I hear the sound of tranquil
I feel the crowd of vacuity
The most aching gelidity of hell

Am I in hell?

Coz I feel like in hell
but it's not hell.

soliloquist, 2008

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Beat of Angel

I know that today's not Mother's day, but it can't mean I can't post this on my blog. :)

This entry is dedicated to my mother, not that she ever reads this blog anyway, but it doesn't matter. I just want to dedicate it anyway. My mum has always been a workaholic. She is the most supportive mom you'll ever find, overprotective though, but whose mom isn't?

Here are few things I like to say in this special entry.

You taught me everything and everything you've given me, I always keep it inside. You're the driving force in my life. There isn't anything or anyone I can be and it just wouldn't feel right if I didn't have you by my side.

You were there for me to love and care for me when skies were grey. Whenever I was down, you were always there to comfort me. And no one else can be what you have been to me.
You'll always be the girl in my life for all times.

You're always down for me have always been around for me, even when I was bad. You showed me right from my wrong. Yes you did. And you took up for me when everyone was downing me. You always did understand. You gave me strength to go on.

There was so many times looking back when I was so afraid. But then you come to me and say to me "I can face anything". And no one else can do what you have done for me. You will always be the girl in my life for all times.

Mama, you know I love you. You're the queen of my heart, queen of all angels. Your love is like tears from the stars. I just want you to know that loving you is like food to my soul.

Loving you is like food to my soul.

[My sister and my mother on her fiftieth birthday after-party. My sis was wearing a pyjama.. haha.]

[end of entry]

Talking about Beat of Angel, I have always been loving BoA's beautiful face. She is like the most perfect girl with the prettiest face and heart-stopping cuteness ever! So as a dessert, I give you a slideshow of my beautiful BoA. Yeah... My BoA! Hahahahaha...

Happy Sunday!

Beat of Angel

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

New Year's Beginning

[Forgive me for the lack of pictures these days. Last night, I really didn't take any photos, no matter how regretful I am now]

It's constantly on its way
, time, I mean. And today is already January 1st, 2008. Eight. I can't believe another year has passed by when I have not changed that much... It makes me notice things I did and didn't do last year.

Everybody wants to have a good closure everytime a year ends and then they start doing their resolutions for the new one.

Should I do that too?

I think I should, but not a very strict resolutions so that they won't weigh my conscience in the times to come.

1. Be more happy, OK?

2. Keep updating this blog. Don't ever abandon her.

3. Get over Cy. I know I have been saying to myself that I have moved on, not thinking about her again. But when new things happened and something big happened about her, I know I still cared for her a lil bit. That's not good. I must get over her, completely.

4. Find a girl I like.

5. Lose more weight. I can't believe I say this. I can't even believe I think of this. But yes, sadly, I am being to fat for my own sake. I think I start becoming real fat ass since the beginning of "the stress" I had months previously. Then I joined a gym but only for a month. After that, I wished very much to go there again, but I had no time because I had to teach. Now that I've laid off some work from my schedule, it's still an absurd thing for me to go to gym. I need more free time.

6. Find, Track, and Buy Will and Grace season 2, 3, 4, 5, and so on. Ok. It's a promise. For the information, Will and Grace is the most difficult TV series for me to find until now. I've searched in many places in Medan but they didn't have its second season DVD. I can't download them because "I'm in Indonesia". I need to think outside the box to find them, but I promise I will.

7. Think of a new job, much better suited for me. A job that I really like to do. A job which defines who I am. A new job where I can meet new people, new friends, new life. Damn, this is a hard one.

8. If it's possible, this year, I want to buy a notebook, preferably the ACER Travelmate, the one I've locked my eyes on months before. I hope the price's decreasing a bit, so I will be able to have it. Hehe.. Wish me luck.

9. The usual wishes : Find new friends, join new club, find your soul mate.

10. Complain less, about Indonesia, PLN, suicide, loneliness and my usual pathetic life. I can't really promise, but I think I can manage to not complain much about Indonesia and PLN anymore, though. Last night, midnight, PLN had us blackout for several minutes. I was furious like usual... "perfect timing!" I said. But they seemed to have overcome the electric crisis I think.

11. Save more and more money. Triple and Triple, no.. quadruple my account in the bank... We really need money in this life.


12. Just be Happy, Man. I deserve it. I know I do.

So last night I kinda lied.

I am always a fan of old and ... ok, I'll say it... Old and New. I used to spend my Old n New with my close friends, Erick, Buchan, Jimmy, Dabin, A Liang, Riwan, or someone else. I always encourage them to enjoy and celebrate the last day of the year. I always love it.

Last night I was having a momentous break down because I truthfully didn't have anything planned. It felt kinda pathetic to admit it. But it's so painful to think that everybody's having their "night" while I was having my "night". Know what I mean?

But as capricious as my last 2006's Old and New, I ended up spending my late Old n New in Never Land. Yeah... That's right. No kidding.

I was in Never Land before we (that is to say I and Novi) went to have dinner at Cemara Asri, the one place most of Medan Lang are heading for every year. It was so crowded. It was a very good day, weatherly speaking. It was so cliche. Everybody went to that place and watched fireworks play, some with family, some with friends, some with their lovers. EVERYBODY was doing something to cherish the last night.

I came there, and all I could think about was how much I missed going inside Cemara Asri again because the last time I was in there, it was like four or five years ago, when I was in highschool with my friends. I had some unforgettable memories there. I remember I used to eat burgers while talking and relaxing with our el_se7en friends. Cemara Asri is one of my happy quite place, one of my favorite place, and it's one place I would like to go there over and over again.

But last night, it was so not my happy quite place. It's more like my happy noisy oh-so-noisy place. But I had fun, great dinner (could be the best Omelette I had in years), and great time. It was a nice closure after all. Like I said in my previous post before... Thanks Novi for accompanying me these days.

At the end of the day (or more like : at the end of the year), all you did was contemplating how everything turned out for you until this very second. How your life has changed. How your people have changed. Some of your friends have graduated, some have worked and been fired. Some of your friends have found their love one. Some of your friends have started relationships and commitments. Some of your friends have even got married (scared I was, everytime I heard one of my friends were getting married when I didn't even have a girlfriend). Some people change. I, on a slower track, do too. I just have to keep my eyes open. Not everyday is the last day of the year.

Sometimes it's just a normal day of the year.

Or sometimes it's the first day of the year.

Now, 2008. What are you going to do to me?