A More Honest Thought

Don't walk in front of me, I don't want to follow you. Don't walk behind me, I don't want to lead the way. Don't walk beside me either. Just leave me alone!

Hello my dear old blog, my first blog and my favourite blog ever. It's not like I've forgotten about you and don't love you anymore... it's because for these two weeks of absence, I was thinking and contemplating while my other consciousness was trying to cheer me up. The thinking part of me caused me so that I couldn't have anything meaningful to write on this blog. I had no inspiration whatsoever. All that I could think about is finding me a girlfriend and as I looked for options and ended up clueless after all, I daresay that I failed utterly.

Finding a girlfriend isn't easy. Well, it's not when you're an average-paid full-time futureless private-teacher with no car and socially retarded. But you're still a freakin' human and all you can do is feel and think. You can still have a crush on somebody, wish for a wishing star, feel lonely and want it to get out of your system. I just wish I couldn't feel all of it. But again, I'm wishing. And that makes me human.

There's this girl. Let's call her Q. She's the kind of girl that's so rare in this town Medan. Why? Because she just loves what I love. We have so much in common, but when I see her face and look at her... I feel nothing. I want to like her but I can't. I want to like her so bad because I need to. For a while, She's been like the only girl who seems to be able to talk to me with all the things I'm interested in. But I don't think she's pretty. I don't think she's sexy. I don't like her. Why do looks always matter? Should I make a move on her eventhough I don't feel the thing? No. it's selfish. It wouldn't be fair to me or to her.

There's another girl. Let's call her N. I've met N once, and I've seen her pictures very often. The first time I knew her, I thought that this girl was it. She's pretty and hot and she's definitely my type. But when I talked to her, I found out that she's a very rude and childish. But I tried to reason with her, after all, I knew she tried too. She wanted to know me a little better. I tried to do my best to make her like me, because at that moment,I've already felt something towards her. A slight crush. She and I didn't have much in common. That made us quite difficult to find things to talk about. But she's more open minded than any girl I'd ever met, and I like that about her. It's just after we met, I still felt that I couldn't get through to her. And I think it's because she found that she didn't like me after she met me in person. When I tried to ask her to meet again, she always found a reason to apologize. I got it. So I stopped trying.

At last, there was this someone I've known for a while now. I used to hang out with her but I didn't anymore these last few months. Strangely enough, I met her last week and we said we missed each other. Let's call her O. She's the kind of girl that's totally the opposite of me. I like everything she doesn't like and I don't like everything she likes. But we still meet and talk like two good friends. Sometimes, when I walked with her and held her hands, I thought I'd taken things to another level, but she always refused that. I don't get her at all. And as for me, I don't really have feelings for her. I think that I know now, I only went out with her when I felt lonely and when I loved the company. She's not even my type of girl. Far from it. There are things of her that I like. But I really don't think that I can be in a relationship with her. And she seems to know that too. But one question always rings in my head. Why have I always asked her out? Why has she always given me such a false hope if there could never be any relationship between us? Either way, I've promised myself to never fall to this same trick again. I will find somebody else.

The three of them were making me busy and restless. They filled my head so bad that there's no room for inspiration anymore. I couldn't write. I could just posted pictures for my new website every single day (which backfired, because my stupid photobucket has just exceeded its bandwith! Arrrgh!) I'll deal with it later.

I don't know where to turn. Maybe I should go out literally and find some new girl and introduce myself. No bull shit. Right now I'm feeling really brave. I don't feel like the person I was before. Right now, if there's a pretty girl in front of me making an eye contact with me, I will not be hesitant to go talk to her.

I'm just that desperate or crazy. But I think desperate isn't suitable with my current status. I'm not desperate to have a girl friend. I just want things to change... things in my life. And the first thing that comes to mind is that I need to find a person to share my life with. I really need to evolve and not eternally drown in the shy-retarded geek boy. I need to change.

But even that I found to be difficult.

A part of me says that I just haven't found the right girl. No body in their right mind hates me. I think I can say for myself that I'm a normal friendly person. And a normal single girl would wake up each day and none of them won't wish that she would meet a guy who would sweep off their feet. Arrgfh! Why all the politics! Why can't I just tell the girl I like that I like her?

You know what?

I'll try just that. Telling the girl straight forward.

A friend of mine, Hendry, talked to me and Sugi once about this. I remember vividly that he acts so aggresively with girls. No high school bull shit because we're way past that.

If you like somebody, tell them. No big deal. I wanted to change. THIS IS CHANGE.

Note to myself when I'm reading this again in the future : Alphabets above minus one. A-1.

Love Story

Whats the best thing about babies? MAKING EM!

Once upon a time, there was a Romeo... and then there was Juliet.

(Juliet ) We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes, and the flashback starts.
I’m standing there.
On a balcony in summer air.
See the lights.
See the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd.
And say hello.
Little did I know,

(Juliet ) That you were Romeo and you’re throwing pebbles.
whom my daddy said stay away from Juliet.
And I was crying on the staircase begging you please don’t go.
And I said,

(Juliet ) Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
I’ll be waiting.
All there’s left to do is run.
You’ll be the Prince, and I’ll be the Princess.
It’s a love story.
Baby just say yes.

(Romeo) So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we’re dead if they knew.
So close your eyes.
Escape this town for a little while

(Romeo) Cause I was Romeo, and I was a scarlet letter.
And my dad said stay away from Juliet.
But you were everything to me.
I was hoping you please don’t go.

(Romeo) Then you said,
(Juliet) And I said,

(Romeo & Juliet) Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
I’ll be waiting.
All there’s left to do is run.

(Romeo) I’ll be the Prince, and you’ll be my Princess.
(Juliet) You’ll be the Prince, and I’ll be the Princess
(Romeo & Juliet) It’s a love story.
Baby just say yes.

(Juliet) Romeo save me.
(Romeo & Juliet) They try to tell us how I feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real.
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess.
It’s a love story.
Baby just say yes.

Oh Oh.

(Juliet) I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you is fading.
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said,

(Juliet) Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head?
I don’t know what to think.
You knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring.
And said,

(Romeo) Marry me Juliet
You’ll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that’s all I really know.
I talked to your dad.
Go pick out a white dress.
It’s a love story.
Baby just say yes.

Oh Oh, Oh Oh.

(Romeo) Cause we were both young when I first saw you.

It's a song, initially. A Very great awesome catchy song by Taylor Swift in her album "Fearless".

And Yeah, She's Gorgeous!

I really like its lyrics. Love how good the story telling is. Love it so much that I decided to edit a few things in the lyrics so that the song can be sang by two people now. A duet, A Romeo, and A Juliet.

I was wondering... I would really love to sing this song on my wedding day, of course, on a duet with my soon-to-be wife. Hehehe... Get the picture? This song originally is sang by a woman. You can find the song on You Tube, below, and the original lyrics as well.

Video Clip :




Lyrics :

And as for singing this song on my wedding day, it will be one hell of a moment. Indeed a very great and romantic idea. But I guess I still have to find myself a girlfriend who can sing this song and most importantly, who want to sing this song with me. :P
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Rage Thread Website

Daddy, why doesn't this magnet pick up this floppy disk?

I think I've taken my obsession about FFFUUU images in to a whole other level. Visit this brand new website I made just earlier that's dedicated to collect those FFFUUU images. Lolz... Those things just crack me out! Hahaha...

http://ragethread.blogspot.com/

Yep. They are called the rage thread.

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Will Update later. Let me know how you feel about the comics. I could never get tired for all the laughing.

And speaking about laughing, earlier I saw these funniest jokes... One of them was surveyed as the funniest joke in the world, and the other just hilarious.

Joke Number 1 :

THE HUNTER

A couple of New Jersey hunters are out in the woods when one of them falls to the ground. He doesn’t seem to be breathing, his eyes are rolled back in his head.

The other guy whips out his cell phone and calls the emergency services. He gasps to the operator: “My friend is dead! What can I do?”

The operator, in a calm, soothing voice, says: “Just take it easy. I can help. First, let’s make sure he’s dead.”

There is a silence, then a shot is heard. The guy’s voice comes back on the line. He says: “Okay, now what?”


Jokes Number 2 :

COSTELLO GETS A COMPUTER

Costello: Hey, Abbott!
Abbott: Yes, Lou?

Costello: I just got my first computer.
Abbott: That's great, Lou. What did you get?

Costello: A Pentium IV-2.66, with 256 Megs of RAM, a 120 Gig hard drive
Abbott: That's terrific, Lou.

Costello: But I don't know what any of it means!
Abbott: You will in time.

Costello: That's exactly why I'm here to see you.
Abbott: Oh?

Costello: I heard that you're a real computer expert.
Abbott: Well, I don't know . . .

Costello: Yes-sir-ee. You know your stuff. And you're going to train me.
Abbott: Really?

Costello: Uh huh. And I am here for my first lesson.
Abbott: O.K. Lou. What do want to know?

Costello: I am having no problem turning it on, but I heard that you should be very careful how you turn it off.
Abbott: That's true.

Costello: So, here I am working on my new computer and I want to turn it off. What do I do?
Abbott: Well, first you press the Start button, and then . . .

Costello: No, I told you I want to turn it off.
Abbott: I know, you press the Start button . . .

Costello: Wait a second. I want to turn it Off. I know how to start it. So tell me what to do.
Abbott: I did.

Costello: When?
Abbott: When I told you to press the Start button.

Costello: Why should I press the Start button?
Abbott: To shut off the computer.

Costello: I press Start to stop?
Abbott: Well, Start doesn't actually stop the computer.

Costello: I knew it! So what do I press?
Abbott: Start.

Costello: Start what?
Abbott: Start button.

Costello: Start button to do what?
Abbott: Shut down.

Costello: You don't have to get rude!
Abbott: No, no, no! That's not what I meant.

Costello: Then say what you mean.
Abbott: To shut down the computer, press . . .

Costello: Don't say, "Start!"
Abbott: Then what do you want me to say?

Costello: Look, if I want to turn off the computer, I am willing to press the Stop button, the End button and Cease and Desist button, but no one in their right mind presses the Start to Stop.
Abbott: But that's what you do.

Costello: And you probably Go at Stop signs, and Stop at green lights.
Abbott: Don't be ridiculous.

Costello: I'm being ridiculous? Well, I think it's about time we started this conversation.
Abbott: What are you talking about?

Costello: I am starting this conversation right now. Good-bye.

Open Invitation? Invitation's Open?

I need someone really bad. Are you really bad?

Last night I asked a girl out, sort of like a hang out so I could get to know her better. I asked her if she wanted to go with me next weekend. But then she said, "Next week? Really? On a Valentine's Day. Really?"

Damn it. I had no idea (I forgot) that next Saturday is Valentine's Day. I was supposed to not let her know how I feel. But then again, I think it's out, and I think it's better that she knows. Haha..

By the way, she said she didn't have any plans for Valentine's Day.

Haih..

What's next for me?

The Story of FFFUUU

Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

Surfing the net for quite some time, I've come to see many ridiculous things from scary things like gore images, disturbing things like scats and weird fetishes, creative things like the unique wallpapers that I've downloaded recently, until the funniest things ever to make me laugh. I am talking about the motivational pictures in my previous entry, but it isn't the only thing. There's a simple yet hilarious comic I've found from many forums. Something with FFFFUUUU.

The comic is simple. Usually it has four frames, and we can't change the last one. All of the comics are made via MS Paint. In this entry I will post several of those comics I found from other websites, of course I have selected the funniest ones... and I myself have created several too...

See below!

The Newbie

The Haircut


The Pond


The Sponge


The Balloon


The "What's UP"


The Weight-Lifting


The Flat Chest

The Weight Lifting #2


The Weight-Lifting #3


The Pee


The Playstation


The Solace


The Tetris


The Grandma


And below are the ones I created...


The Hair Gel


The Maintenance


The Surprise


The Destiny

That's all. I will update if I make more... hehehe... You can also see a thread of mine containing this pictures in Kaskus... here. FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!